I am a daughter of God with infinite worth raising daughters of God of infinite worth.
This is my new mantra this week.
I am hoping it will help push all the yuck out of my mind. All day long I mentally beating myself up about things from not having a cleaner house, the kids are fighting again, or I’m fat all the way to I haven’t showered yet or I ate a dozen cookies and didn’t realize it.
All this self loathing gets exhausting.
I know God lives and that I am one of his children that he wants to have come home to him. So doesn't that make me worth something? Why do I work so hard to make sure I forget this fact? I have always struggled with the negative self talk. In fact it got so bad on my mission I became more of a hindrance than anything else. I did what I do best and ran away from it. It comes creeping back in and I am in the life I always wanted and yet I often have the desire to run very far away from all the things I must be doing terribly wrong.
But I can't and I won't.
I often wish I was my 20 year old self. I was confident in myself, content with who I was and had no doubt of my divine nature. I want that back in my 35 year old self. I always thought I’d eventually grow out of that whole low self esteem thing but it turns out it's just been over more things. This is why I have a new mantra this week. It is to help be reacquainted with that happier, Godly focused 20 year old and make her an even better 35 year old.
Because I am a daughter of God with infinite worth raising daughters of God with infinite worth.
And is more important than that?
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Yay for you! I so needed this. Why is it that us 30ish year old mom's beat ourselves up! Hopping you have the bestest day ever!!
You are one of the most awesomest friends I have never met. I really like the mantra. It is wise.
But it is a little long for a bumper sticker..
AMEN SISTA! Love it! Thanks for reminding me to not be so hard on myself when I am sitting around with toys scattered a kitchen sink full of dishes and cluttered countertops and that I haven't lost my baby weight and if I do it could be a while. You are an inspiration and remember you truly know how to make someone smile and laugh with a single sentence!
I understand the low esteem ... I guess it happens, but I know that Satan will grab and hold it over you if he thinks he can ... I know from personal experience! I think you are awesome! and though I know I am not there, wading through the trenches of young motherhood with you, I do know that your daughters are beautiful and exquisite! You are one of my heros!
I am more confident now in my 30's, but with way more anxiety. Boo.
It doesn't just seem to happen in the 30's, I am pushing 50, that's right the big 5 - 0 (next year) and I am battling it right now, it comes and goes for me - high school, 30's, now.
It's kind of funny I was just going to ask if anyone (besides me) still have self-doubts.
Hang in there, we can work this out, if you need anything, call.
YOU'RE THE BEST!
I have this cd that talks about positive affirmations. I really think there is something to it. I am just amazed that someone who lifts and serves others constantly like yourself can be your own worst enemy! We all need to stop non-verbally abusing ourselves!
Very very well said and couldn't be more timely. I needed this today too. It is so easy to try and get caught up in all the wrong things and never feel good enough- but that is not the truth or the plan at all
Very true! I totally hear you on everything. You have such a gift at writing things in such a funny but real way. You are amazing!!
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